September 18, 2007

I received a text today, asking me if I wanted to be free. I would always answer “No” when someone asks me that. I’ll be happy if I’m with her. It’s just that there are so many things about me that people would not understand and believe.

Second thing:

I have so many bad issues in my life. That makes me a bad candidate for bein’ an ideal man. Issues in girls and family.

Third thing:

I don’t believe in love.

When I was in high school and college, I thought that I felt love but I realized It was not love that I felt.

I had my first formal relationship with a girl when I was in first year college. I thought that I was deeply inlove with her. I cried for her, think of her before I sleep and after I wake up and felt other things that others said you feel when your inlove but why am I still attracted to other girls? I mean for me I love her so much but I still look at other girls and even try to get their numbers and flirt with them. Is that love? For me a guy or even a girl maybe doesn’t look at other people with their opposite gender because of fear. Fear that they will hurt someone, that they will loose a good company, etc. Do you think if you will allow your boyfriend to look at other girls he would still not do it because he loves you? Foolishness. People don’t fall with someone else because they don’t have time to be someone else. They’re stuck with you. If they had a chance, they will grab it for sure.

This thing makes me a guy that shouldn’t be loved. Even one of these things is enough. That’s why I’ll be answering “yes” to the text message I received.

PS: Freedom is only given to prisoner or slaves. I’m not a prisoner or a slave which means I am already free. Why do people think that they own someone? Sigh…