first day.. not bad

i know i have a zero percent chance on you. our friend told me that but yesterday was different. i sent you a message on fb and i was shocked you replied. we chatted for a couple of minutes and i asked you if you wanna watch a movie. I thought you're gonna say no but surprisingly you said yes. first day.. not bad..

reconcile

immunity

maybe the pain will go away if i keep on staring
maybe instead of hurting me, that picture will make me immune to this pain

September 18, 2007

I received a text today, asking me if I wanted to be free. I would always answer “No” when someone asks me that. I’ll be happy if I’m with her. It’s just that there are so many things about me that people would not understand and believe.

Second thing:

I have so many bad issues in my life. That makes me a bad candidate for bein’ an ideal man. Issues in girls and family.

Third thing:

I don’t believe in love.

When I was in high school and college, I thought that I felt love but I realized It was not love that I felt.

I had my first formal relationship with a girl when I was in first year college. I thought that I was deeply inlove with her. I cried for her, think of her before I sleep and after I wake up and felt other things that others said you feel when your inlove but why am I still attracted to other girls? I mean for me I love her so much but I still look at other girls and even try to get their numbers and flirt with them. Is that love? For me a guy or even a girl maybe doesn’t look at other people with their opposite gender because of fear. Fear that they will hurt someone, that they will loose a good company, etc. Do you think if you will allow your boyfriend to look at other girls he would still not do it because he loves you? Foolishness. People don’t fall with someone else because they don’t have time to be someone else. They’re stuck with you. If they had a chance, they will grab it for sure.

This thing makes me a guy that shouldn’t be loved. Even one of these things is enough. That’s why I’ll be answering “yes” to the text message I received.

PS: Freedom is only given to prisoner or slaves. I’m not a prisoner or a slave which means I am already free. Why do people think that they own someone? Sigh…

One of my favorite song from my favorite band. I'm not sure what this song really means. My interpretation changes everytime I listen to it  pero #LSS parin.

Distance

"If I am really a part of your dream, you'll come back one day."

"The desert takes our men from us, and they don't always return," she said. "We know that, and we are used to it. Those who don't return become a part of the clouds, a part of the animals that hide in the ravines and of the water that comes from the earth. They become a part of everything... they become the Soul of the World.

"Some do come back. And then the other women are happy because they believe that their men may one day return, as well. I used to look at those women and envy them their happiness. Now, I too will be one of the women who wait.

"I'm a desert woman, and I'm proud of that. I want my husband to wander as free as the wind that shapes the dunes. And, if I have to, I will accept the fact that he has become a part of the clouds, and the animals and the water of the desert."

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Quotes from the novel "The Alchemist". Every word reminded of the distance that we have but I agree with you, distance is relative and to me you are close enough. You are part of my dream and I will always come back. ^_____^